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Unsilence the Silenced: Chapter One, Part two

Years earlier the town council purchased the old country church. With moderate renovations, they converted it into the town hall.  Five wooden steps led up to the bright red door, a sharp contrast to the pale green building. The small boy spotted the familiar woman with salt-and-pepper hair. She bent down in one of the flower beds beside the steps.  

“There’s Grammie,” the small boy exclaimed. “Can I go see her?”

Not waiting for a reply, the small boy pulled the door handle, pushed hard, and dashed out. “Grammie,” he exclaimed, running. The grandmother turned; arms open. The small boy slammed into her. Teetering, she caught herself.

shallow focus of a grandmother hugging her grandson

“Whoa there, cowboy, you’re about to knock me over.” She swallowed the small boy in her big hug. The sun warmed the morning air.

“I’ve missed you so much,” the small boy lamented, tightening his arms around her neck.

“Missed me?” his grandmother smiled. She pulled back and looked him in the eye. “You just saw me yesterday.”

The small boy took his grandmother’s face in his small hands. “But yesterday was so long ago,” he expression serious, “I really missed you.” He kissed her cheek.

A cool breeze brought a song sparrow who landed on the edge of a birdbath. The tiny bird shared its cheery tune. The small boy and his grandmother held each other’s eyes for a moment. The grandmother grinned and winked at the small boy.

 “Well, then,” she said, releasing her embrace, “stay here with me. You can help me capture the bad guys who are invading the gardens.” The small boy’s face broke into a smile.

“Oh, yes. I’m good at catching bad guys.” his eyes danced as he began his hunt.

Infant and diaper bag in hand, with the blue blanket draped over her shoulder, the young mother walked to where the small boy worked alongside his grandmother. “Let’s go inside,” she said to the small boy. The small boy stopped, a blade of grass in hand, and looked at his mother. He held his breath, not wanting to go indoors yet.

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Unsilence the Silenced: Chapter One

The sun shone through the crack between the drapes in the small bedroom and woke the young mother. Yawning, she noticed the dent in the pillow beside her and remembered the quiet “I’m off to work” spoken while the room was still dark. She glanced at the clock. “I better get up and get going,” she muttered to herself. I don’t have a lot of time before VBS starts.

Vroom sounds came from the small boy’s bedroom. She tip-toed down the hall to the bathroom. Back in her room, she eyed the clothes in her closet. What can I wear? She asked wanting to look good and comfortable. Choosing a pair of brown hot pants, she topped off the outfit with a pink-striped, short-sleeve knit shirt. Her long, brown hair pulled back into a ponytail, she applied a quick layer of mascara. A final look in the mirror, a nod of approval, and she went to attend to the children.

“Let’s go for a drive,” the small boy said. He stood beside the crib weaving a purple racecar in and out of the slats. “Here, you can use this one.” He handed the infant a red station wagon.

The infant, who sat next to a balled-up blue blanket, took it, and promptly put it in her mouth. “No, baby. Yuck,” he reached in and pulled her hand from her mouth. “Like this.” He helped her put the car on the mattress and moved her hand. “Vroom. See.” He looked up as the young mother entered the room.

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My Son is Home

From here I can see the road, it’s a good place for me to put
my chair. I’ve sat here everyday since the day he left. It feels like a lifetime ago, but I know he will come home. One day. I just know. So I sit. Waiting. Watching.

He always was restless. As a young boy when we worked in the fields he preferred to use the stocks as swords, the stacks of sheaves as fortresses. Yes, I know, that is natural for boys, yet it seemed to me he needed adventure as much as he needed food or air. He longed for something beyond. I remember when he was, oh maybe thirteen, I noticed him seemingly in a vision, he was looking out, far in the distance, his face expressionless. “What are you seeing?” I asked, concerned he would hear the fear in my voice. “Oh nothing,” he said wistfully, “just wondering what’s out there.” My heart sank at the confirmation of what I’d known for a long time. He was going to leave someday.

I have that same knowing now. I know he’s going to come home. So, I sit here wishing, hoping today will be the day. My older son, such a good boy, tells me it’s just wishful thinking, futile.
But I know.

I’m so grateful for him, he is able to run the estate without me. It’s been a tough growing season because of the drought. We had so little rain the harvest has been scarce. Thanks to him, and Yaweh’s provision, we have enough; enough and a little extra. Other estates have not faired so well and the famine extends way beyond our borders. I worry. Does he have enough to eat? Is he warm? Is he safe? Yahweh be his provider, his protector, and defender. And bring him home soon.

I’m tired today. I awoke early from nightmares. I can’t shake the images of him, sunken cheeks, distended stomach. It was horrifying. I’m discouraged, perhaps my older son is right and all this waiting is futile. It’s especially hot and dry this morning. The wind blows the dust up off the sandy road and the horizon is hazy and distorted.
Far in the distance I can see puffs of dust rising in the air.
I stand, put my hand up to shade my eyes and squint. It’s a trail of dust….
it’s moving towards me….

My heart skips then begins to pound in my chest as I hold my breath. Could it be? Gripping my robe, my pounding heart under my fist, I take two steps forward, standing at the edge of the porch.
Then I see.
It’s him!
I know it’s him!
Leaving all propriety on the porch I lift and gather my robe around my hips so I can run.
And I run.
My old legs, renewed with life and energy race me to him. Every step closer, closer, and closer.

He walks slowly, almost dragging his feet, shoulders hunched, head down, eyes looking at the road. His clothes are tattered rags. He is dirty, his face smeared, his hair long and greasy, his beard scraggled and unkept. He looks up and sees me coming to him. He falls to his knees, weeping in his hands. Crashing to my knees I gather him in my arms. His muffled voice keeps repeating over and over ,”Father I have sinned”. I hold him, rock him as he sobs, his body heaving, shaking in my arms. He cries until he is spent. I soothe him, my own tears falling on his head.

House servants arrive where we sit on the dusty road.
“Kill the fatted calf,” I tell them, “we are going to have a party. My son is home.” My son looks up at me. Brow furrowed, his eyes are clouded in shame. I cradle his cheek with my hand and kiss his forehead. “Welcome home Son, l’ve missed you.” Fresh tears wet our cheeks. I remove the family ring from my finger, take his hand and place it on his finger. We get up from the road, well I get up and lift my son to his feet. My arm around him, half embracing, half supporting , his ribs poking into my hand, we walk back to the house.

Hours later all the neighbours are here. There’s music and laughter, dancing. My son has had a bath, his hair washed, combed, and tied at the back of his neck, his beard trimmed. He is wearing clothes I kept for him. They sag on his slender frame. I have not left his side and he seems comforted by that. The remnants of shame linger in his demeanor, his head always down he struggles to look people in the eye.

I search the crowd for my older son. He is no where to be seen. Puzzled I get up from my seat. My son looks at me, his face strained, clouded by anxiety. As I did on the road, I cup his cheek in my hand and kiss his forehead in reassurance, “I’ll be right back.”

I find my older son on the porch. He is pacing. “Come inside son.” He stops. His face distorted, glaring at me, eyes blazing in anger, he hisses through gritted teeth. “I’ve been with you always. Done what needs to be done. Sacrificing. Worked and worked to please you. And what did I get? Nothing. Absolutely Nothing. Not even a small gathering for me and my friends.” His voice rises, his tone full of disgust. “And this brother of mine,” he spits out the words, “Did nothing but shame you. Squandered away everything. And for him you invite the whole town to celebrate?!

A part of my heart sinks. He doesn’t understand. I step towards him and gently take his face in both my hands, I look into his eyes. His head shifts down as he tries to pull away. “Son,” I hold my tender grip. He looks at me. “You HAVE been with me always. Everything I have is yours. But Your brother was lost and now he’s home.” I can see he doesn’t understand. Confusion and bitterness pass through his hardened eyes . His gaze drops. I lean toward him and kiss his forehead, let him go and return to the party. My steps a little slower.

Upon entering the room I spot my son sitting where I left him. He spots me too, his face relaxes in relief. My heart leaps and I smile at him.
My son was lost, and now he’s home.